another world of me...

i don't know what happend to me...
i really don't understand...
there're a lot of sadness in my heart...
i can't hold it anymore...

i usually sing to make myself better...
but not this time, it's not working =(
a usually paint to express myself...
but i can't do it and i don't know why i can't...

i'm trying to sing, but i'm crying!
i'm trying to painting, but i'm just ruin it!

my friends know me as a strong girl...
i'm strong, never cry because of boys, active girl, and cheerful...
but now i'm not that "strong girl" anymore...
i'm a "weak girl"
i don't know why!!!

i'm trying to keep moving on...
but i can't...

i'm broken!
i've shattered my own self!

maybe i should run away...
maybe i should disappear...
maybe i should find a place where i'll be happier...
but i don't know where should i go...

i'm just a girl who cry behind all of my laughter...
i'm trying to smile even if i can't, but still...
i can't do it!!!

what's wrong with me?
i'm trying to figure out...
why?
why can't i find the answer?
i don't understand...
what's wrong with me?

will i change my self into the new "weak" girl?
or, i'll burn all of my sadness and stand up to continue my life...
but how can i burn it?
how?

it's so hard to understand...
i can't understand me...
no one can understand me...
i've trying to understand other people out there...
but, no one can understand me...
it's so unfair...

well, just be myself...
i still don't know what to do...
but, life must go on...

i'll continue my life and be my own self...